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No wonder
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No wonder the world is how it is today. I can't feel anything but anguish this days. I've decided to kill the time, so my time will be over. And by becoming over, will I rest in peace in such darkness that bounds us this dark days. I can't imagine a happy ending for my life anymore. Perhaps six months ago I could have had that imagined. But with old memories coming back to the surface I don't have a choice but to remember and try to forget. It's been for almost three years that I feel like this. Ever so sad, ever so miserable, ever so dead on the inside. And dead on the outside. Decaying with every second that passes.........
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At last
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Well, after so much waiting, I am finally playing as a first violin in the national theater. Today I was like THE best in anatomy. Nobody could beat me today. You ask, I answer. I am really excited. WIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII.
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Life--- Go fuck yourself v. 2.0
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Now it is worse than a few hours ago. I feel guilty. Guilty of feeling so stupid and sad. I must tell her all my thoughts no matter the consequence. I hate that I have to do it, but it is the only reasonable way to get rid of this sorrow
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Life--- Go fuck yourself
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I feel sick and tired. The worst thing is I don't know why. Right now I feel revolted. I feel like if I made the mistake, not her. I feel stupid of thinking that. I meditate and don't get answers. I suffered and don't get relieve. Is it entirely necessary for me to live.
My life is nothing but problems and unhappiness. She's the only one that gives me happiness. But right now she is away from my grasp, my lips, my hands, my skin and specially my heart.
She corrects me and makes the very same mistakes. I try to correct myself in order to be a better person. She absorbs my dumbness and becomes a worse person. I fear her leaving me. I fear her doing the worst. I fear losing her love. I fear my mistakes.
That's why I suffer. Because I don't understand life and cry and hurt myself for not understanding and knowing.
Is it really necessary for me to love? Answer you God. Answer me now or else. I will destroy my so beloved soul. It will be destroyed beyond repair, as my heart is now.
Help me Lauren
My life is nothing but problems and unhappiness. She's the only one that gives me happiness. But right now she is away from my grasp, my lips, my hands, my skin and specially my heart.
She corrects me and makes the very same mistakes. I try to correct myself in order to be a better person. She absorbs my dumbness and becomes a worse person. I fear her leaving me. I fear her doing the worst. I fear losing her love. I fear my mistakes.
That's why I suffer. Because I don't understand life and cry and hurt myself for not understanding and knowing.
Is it really necessary for me to love? Answer you God. Answer me now or else. I will destroy my so beloved soul. It will be destroyed beyond repair, as my heart is now.
Help me Lauren
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The crapiest day of my life
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Man, today couldn't get worse. My parents fighting with me. My girl disappointed of my parents and also thinks that my parents doesn't like her. Damn life is a real shit.
I just wanna go sleep and don't wake up for three years. Just close my eyes and forget everything. Just have the three most important persons in my life
I just wanna go sleep and don't wake up for three years. Just close my eyes and forget everything. Just have the three most important persons in my life
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